Changed my theme again, I got a bit sick of using the default theme with WordPress. It’s tidy but gets boring very quickly. I like this new theme though “Ari” and I’m testing it on my other site www.parkwaycreative.com.
I’ve slowly been chipping away at that site adding bits, also cleaning up my amount of domain names and not renewing a lot of them. Less is better, and more manageable. This should stick for a while, it doesn’t burn my eyes as much. But I might fiddle with the logo for a bit and photoshop something up.
A few posts ago I’d said I was going to post up something about my Life Story. Since then, I’ve changed my mind and won’t be posting it up on my blog. I realised I have too much that I’m not willing to share yet. Instead a few weeks ago I bought myself 2 journals, mainly due to the idea from a good friend.
The last few months have been a struggle, mentally, emotionally and physically. Her suggestion was to write down everything that stresses me, upsets me, frustrates me, and anything I hate into a crappy journal that I don’t care about. To release some anger and stress of what I keep bottled up, keeping things bottled up isn’t a good idea. But majority of the time I do, because I feel I have no one that can help no matter how hard they try. I also believe that if I can work through it myself, I’ll be a stronger person at the end of the day.
I also bought a second journal, I’ve been writing down childhood memories, either good or bad. Into this journal, just to keep for my sake.
The reason being is I think I’ve had to work hard to get where I am, and just to go slightly off topic, for probably the best part of 10 years I have wanted to get tattoo’s. But I can’t be the kind of person who just gets something because it looks cool or they like it. There’s had to be some meaning for having it for me in the first place. I have the first tattoo ready, just need to find the time to get it done, as Tink will be taking me to have it done!
But the tattoo is only words “Veni Vidi Vici”, “I came, I saw, I conquered”. Because I think what I’ve had to endure, and the hard work I’ve had to do to get where I am is explained behind it.
I’m getting a third journal to scribble down daily thoughts, I’ve just put it in random bits of paper lately so I’d rather somewhere I can store it without getting lost or ruined.
At times life can be overwhelming, you can get an influx of information that your brain can’t deal with. Over the past 2 months it seems like I’ve only gotten bad news, and know I have more to come. My health, health of close friends, and the loss of family can take it’s toll.
I find myself in a situation quite regularly in that if someone needs help, I’ll help them. If something needs to be fixed, I’ll fix it. It’s in my nature and there’s nothing I can do about it. After getting so much bad news lately, I hit the wall and couldn’t handle it anymore.
But I had to stop and process all the information and remind myself that, you can’t fix everything, and not everything was meant to be fixed. Sometimes you just have to sit back and ride the wave. Sometimes, you just have to deal with the issues at hand, like my health. When you’re friends are sick and you can’t help, you just have to be there to support them through tough times. Even if they are stubborn! (Yes, I’m talking about you, Tink!)
You just have to remind yourself that there will be an end to it at some stage.
Anzad Day is approaching again. I have been going to the dawn service for a few years now with my Dad who’s a Vietnam Veteran. I think with my age and growing up I’ve come to respect the people who’ve fought in the war. We didn’t make it last year, as Dad is missing part of his kneecap, but we’re planning on going this year. Hopefully I will get the opportunity to take some photos while I’m there.
For those of you who do click the link to my blog and read my ramblings, I highly recommend going to the dawn service. It’s very moving, and gives you a chance to show your respects to those who’ve fought and lost.
Photo credit: Flickr
Most people would look at that photo and think about its composition, the colours, the beauty of it. They would think that it’s a nice place to visit.
While looking at this photo I have a different though. The crisp air, the fog, that freezing feeling on your lungs. The air passing your ear ever so quickly. Thundering into a corner and dabbing on the brakes a little, hearing the revs kick up as you swing into the apex of the first corner, the foot going down on the accelerator to push you out the corner faster. The gurgle underneath the foot well in the car as you accelerate, the roar out the exhaust pipe bouncing off the cliff faces around you. You don’t know what comes after each corner, but for as far as you can see it can be anything, and a total adventure.
I’m planning on a driving holiday for later this year, to meet some people, visit some places, eat some good food and take a lot of photos. But I want to drive through some of the most scenic routes.
So far my list of places to visit are as follows:
- Adelaide to Mt Gambier. I’d like to see the blue lakes again, I haven’t seen them since I was a kid, and get some photos of it, and other stuff along the way.
- Then Mt Gambier to Melbourne via the Great Ocean Road.
- Ferry from Melbourne to Tasmania after a few days in Melbourne, and drive from the top of Tassie to the bottom at Hobart with a few stops for photos and stay in Hobart for a day or 2 and then head back to the top of Tassie and ferry back over with the car.
- Then drive to Canberra, Stawell Tops, Sydney and Newcastle, and then turn around and come back.
I’d like to visit Perth, but driving is probably a waste of time in the car, it’s probably cheaper to fly and hire a car while there.